The characters of the Ranma 1/2 universe are the sole creation and possession of the brilliant Rumiko Takahashi.

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Hearts of Ice

Part 16: Memories of the Past

by Krista Perry

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            It was snowing.

            Ranma shivered, looked around blearily, feeling strangely weak.

            Snow covered the ground as far as he could see; light flakes drifted lazily from the clouded night sky.  The tiny, shimmering crystals stung the skin of his face and hands with pricks of biting cold.

            Jeeze...  I can barely move...  What's wrong with me..?

            A wave of exhaustion swept over him, and his legs threatened to buckle beneath him.  He stumbled forward a step, leaving a deep dragging track in snow that almost came up to his knees, but he remained standing.

            He was so cold...

            "Where am I?" he asked no one, his voice small and lost in the vast snowy wasteland.  The wind answered, soft, wailing...

            Ranma...

            He turned at the voiceless sound of his name to see the Snow Woman, tall and white, a cruel smile on her bloodless face.  And standing in front of her was Akane, wearing her school uniform, looking at him blankly.

            "Akane!"  He tried to move, but his legs felt so heavy that he couldn't lift them...  and he was so cold...

            Akane's brow furrowed in puzzlement.  "Do I know you?"

            "Akane!"  His voice was thick with despair.  He reached out to her with shaking arms.  "It's me... please, you have to remember.  It's just the Kami Plane making you forget!"  He glanced between her and the Snow Woman.  "You don't belong with her, Akane, she's a demon!  Please, come back to me..."

            Akane shrank away from him, clinging to the Snow Woman's frost blue robes.

            "Your... love... is not the binding link you thought it was," said the Snow Woman softly, smiling at him.  And, as she reached out with a slender white finger to touch him in the center of his forehead, he found he could not move to stop her...

            A cold, watery chill rippled over the surface of his skin.  And he felt himself change.  He looked down at himself, at his woman's body, in horror.  "What..!"

            His head snapped up fearfully to see Akane's own brown eyes widening at the sight of his transformed body, only to narrow a moment later, her nose wrinkling in aversion.  "Ughh," she said.  "A pervert."

            Ranma's heart shriveled within his chest.  "No...  Akane," he pleaded, his mezzo-soprano voice grating in his ears.  "I'm not..."

            "Jerk.  Insensitive pervert," she said.

            Ranma trembled.

            The Snow Woman laughed.  "Take it slow," she said, soft and sultry.  "We don't want to put him out of his misery too soon."

            A soft, purring chuckle echoed in his head, and Ranma jerked, his throat going dry, his eyes wide and staring.

            No, oh no, please, not again, anything but...

            Ranma pressed himself into the corner of his room, next to the dresser.  The stinging snowflakes were shivering pieces of glass, a shattering light bulb plunging him into darkness...

            The demon's huge cat eyes were opaque yellow orbs glinting in the dark as it slunk closer.  **Ah, you remember me.  I'm flattered.  You're my favorite, you know...**

            Ranma whimpered.  Something inside him, something that had been there since he was ten years old, awoke and began crawling up from the blackest depths of his soul.  Ranma felt himself falling, falling inside himself, as the feline thing within him rose to the surface.  He was falling...

            ...to his hands and knees, unable to stand upright...

            ...Oh please, help me, somebody...

            ...was running, running on all fours, driven by fear, unable to stop himself...

            ...opened his mouth to scream, to cry for help, but all that came out was a terrified yowling...

            Ranma felt warm tears well up, turning cold as they touched his skin, streaking down his girl's face as he ran...

            Please... somebody, help me..!

            "It's okay, Ranma."   

            And he turned, wrapping his paws protectively around his half-eaten fish, to see a strange bird-man, black eyes glittering above an expressionless beak.  "You know me, deep down.  You know I'm a friend.  I've helped you before, and I'm here to help you now."

            Ranma stood on four legs, looking up at the tengu through red bangs, feeling the blank animal expression on his own female face.  Yes, please... please help me, I don't like this at all, I can't think...

            But, as the tengu stepped towards him, five gaping, bleeding wounds opened up in the creature's feathered chest.  The tengu looked down at himself for a moment, almost surprised,  then collapsed lifelessly onto the forest grass...

            Ranma could smell the blood, could feel the ravenous hunger it stirred within him, glazing his mind, even as he silently screamed...

            A demon laughing...

            "Ranma..?"  Ryoga looked at him, disbelief and horror flickering across his face.

            ...Ryoga...  Ranma turned, nose twitching as he caught the scent of food in the lost boy's pack.  ...please help me, I can't think, I...

            "C'mere, Ranma."  Ryoga was kneeling down, beckoning to him.  "C'mere, kitty kitty..."

            And Ranma felt himself respond to the incomprehensible chattering, like the feline animal he was.  He chewed ravenously on the strip of meat snatched from Ryoga's hand.  And the smothered, nearly non-existent spark of his human consciousness knew, and felt it all.  And wanted to die...

            Cologne, the shriveled old ghoul, sat on a neighboring rooftop, cackling silently in the shadows, her narrowed eyes staring down at him...

            ...kitty kitty kitty...

            **Poor Ranma.**  The Shadowcat's voice, in his head, condescendingly mocking.  **You're a good kitty, aren't you?  Yes you are...**

            Akane..!   Ranma opened his mouth to call her, but he was meowing, the words wouldn't come, he couldn't remember...  Just meowing over and over...  Oh, please, Akane, please come back, I need you... I've lost myself, I can't think...

            A whispering, scratching away in the deep recesses of his mind.  Growing louder.  *You'll never see her again, you're doomed to fail, you already have, you should give up you'll never see her again you're doomed to fail you already haveyoushould giveupyou'llneverseeheragainyou'redoomedtofailyoualreadyhave...*

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            Ranma gasped as his eyes snapped open, his heart thudding hard in his chest, the spell voices echoing loudly in his mind...

            Ceiling.  He was looking at the ceiling of his room.

            A dream... 

            Oh jeeze...  Ranma squeezed his eyes shut and slowly, painfully pushed the spell voices from the forefront of his mind.  His mouth was dry, he was shaking, drenched in cold sweat... no, more than cold...  Icy...

            Turning his head slightly, he opened his eyes and blinked, trying to focus on the reality around him, to shake off the nightmare...  Dim, early-morning light seeped through the drawn shades over the window.  He could see boards and plywood covering the hole that he blasted in the wall of his room while trying to take out the Snow Woman last night...

            Not last night.  Days ago.  Ages ago.  I remember...

            "Ranchan?"  

            Ranma startled slightly, only then realizing that someone was in the room with him.  Ukyo leaned over him, her weary expression twisting with a mixture of relief, concern, and... fear.  "Are... you okay?"

            Ranma groaned and, as he carefully pushed himself into a sitting position, he realized with dismay that he was not a "he" at all.

            But then, I already knew that, he thought dismally.

            He rubbed his face with his delicate, bandaged hands, wiping away the icy sweat that clung to his skin.  Ukyo watched him in silence.

            "What... what happened?" he asked finally.  The last thing he remembered was regaining consciousness... Ukyo sweeping him up in a crushing hug... the overwhelming desire to stand up... to walk on two legs like a m... like a human being... to leave immediately for China to break the blood spell and save Akane...

            "Doctor Tofu hit your sleep points."  Ukyo's voice was soft, and strangely thick.  "You've been asleep for nearly ten hours.  You..."  You nearly died, Ranchan, I was so afraid, I thought I'd lost you...

            Ukyo swallowed, fighting back wetness building in her eyes.  She couldn't think of that now.  Ranma needed her.  "You... were so drained of ki, you needed time to recover, but you kept trying to stand up..."  ...and you were going on and on about breaking the blood spell and saving Akane...  "...and I... we... were afraid that you would hurt yourself because we weren't sure..."  

            She trailed off as Ranma turned to look at her, his red bangs sticking to his damp forehead, his haunted blue eyes looking at her from his girl's face...

            His eyes were haunted, yes.  But... at least she could see him in those eyes, and not the vacuously innocent feline that had peered at her from those same eyes for the past eight days...

            Ranma was back.  It didn't even matter to her that he was a girl at the moment, that his eyes were framed by a sweetly delicate female face, so similar to, yet so different from Ranma's handsome, strong male features that made her heart flutter inside her chest.  She looked into his blue eyes, the windows to his soul, the only part of him that didn't change with his transformation, and knew that Ranma's mind was finally restored, even if his body wasn't...

            As if thinking the same thing, Ranma looked down at himself, at his female body.  He blinked in numb horror, as if noticing his curse for the first time.  Soft, well-proportioned curves and petite frame under his tank top and boxers... creamy, flawless skin...  His cursed form was voluptuously female in every sense of the word.  Not a trace of masculinity to be found in it.

            Except in the eyes. The haunted flickering in his blue eyes would tell anyone who cared to look deep enough, as Ukyo did, that Ranma's cursed form was as alien to him as it might have been had he fallen into the Spring of Drowned Piglet, the Spring of Drowned Duck... or the Spring of Drowned Cat...

            A tremor passed through Ranma's slender, shivering body.  "Oh man," he whispered, almost silently.  And Ukyo realized at that moment that Ranma somehow knew he was stuck in cursed form.  She wanted to reach out and comfort him, tell him it didn't matter, that she knew he was a guy, no matter what...

            "Are you... okay?" she asked again.

            "Ucchan," he replied hoarsely, and his eyes lost focus as he seemed to stare right past her.  "I... remember everything."\

            Ukyo looked at him, uncomprehending for a moment.  Then her face went white as she suddenly understood the full meaning of the tormented expression on his face.  "Oh, Ranchan.  I...  You mean you remember being... you remember the Nekoken?"

            Ranma nodded slowly, shuddering, and rubbed his face with his bandaged hands again, as if he could rub away the memories.  "Oh man..." he whispered.

            And Ukyo felt her heart contract in painful empathy.  Ranma was so proud, so driven by honor, so fiercely protective of his masculinity...  For him to remember the humiliation of his existence the past eight days, with both his mind and body so changed...

            But then, that means... he must remember that I stayed with him...

            Ukyo blinked, thinking of the time she spent, staying by Ranma's side, taking care of him, searching desperately for some sign of the man she loved in his feline mind, hoping against hope that she could coax his humanity back to the surface the way Genma said the old woman had done when he was a child.  After all, wasn't she his fiancée?

            But his feline mind had not been focused on her.

            Ranma had spent almost every waking moment in Akane's room.  And Ukyo had stayed with him, taking care of him, trying to comfort him, to hush his mewing even as he cried constantly for the missing girl...

            A girl that, according to her memory, didn't exist.  A girl she didn't want to believe in, even now with the explanation of the Kami Plane's spell of Forgetfulness altering their memories.  Even with all the evidence of the youngest Tendo daughter's room that had surrounded her for over a week.  A part of her still clung to the hope that it was all a result of the blood spell; that, when they went to China, faced the Ancient One and broke the spell, all traces of this Akane person would disappear, and Ranma would realize that the love he felt for the non-existent girl was nothing more than a result of the spell he was under... 

            But another part of her, the solid, rational part, knew that she was fooling herself.  This was the part of her that knew of Nabiki's similar internal struggle.  She knew that the Tendo girl had feelings for Ranma.  She had seen those feelings in a fleeting moment when Nabiki's usual cold mask had slipped, the very afternoon before Ranma was taken by the Shadowcat...

            And yet, even so, Nabiki chose to expose the truth behind the blood spell and the Kami Plane's spell of Forgetfulness; revealing the truth of her younger sister's existence, knowing that doing so destroyed any chance she might have with Ranma...

            Of course, what Nabiki did was only right.  To do anything else would be selfishly inhuman, even more monstrous than what Shampoo did, casting the blood spell in the first place.  But Ukyo couldn't help but envy the stone-faced girl her ability to put fierce, unblinking family loyalty above her own private passion.

            Ukyo had no family.  Her own passion and loyalty was completely undivided.  It lay solely with Ranma.

            But he loved Akane...

            And her own words to Shampoo, as she rebuked the Amazon for casting the blood spell, echoed relentlessly, mercilessly in her mind...

            If you ever really cared about him at all... you would have let him choose.

            Ranma had chosen.

            And what was she to do now?

            "Ucchan..."  Ranma's female voice, filled with panicky concern, calling her from the depths of her misery...  "Don't... don't cry, Ucchan.  I'm... okay.  Really."

            Ukyo looked up at him, at his pale girl's face, his haunted blue eyes...  He was lying, of course; she could tell just by looking at him that he was far from okay.

            And she hadn't even realized she was crying.  She wasn't the weepy type, really.  She had cried more this past week than she had in her entire life.  Even now, she couldn't feel the tears that coursed down her face to fall lightly on her hands, folded in her lap.  She just felt numb.  The surface of her skin tingled.  She kept waiting for the shattering sound of her heart, but it didn't come.  Her heart continued to pound in her chest, almost painfully, as if forcing her to be aware that she was still alive...

            Ranma was still trying to comfort her in his usual awkward way, and of course he had no real clue regarding the true source of her tears.  He was so naive that way...  "I mean, hey," he was saying, trying to sound cheerful and failing miserably.  "I know I'm... stuck... right now..."  His eyes wavered a little, as if afraid to look down at his body; the body that, by all appearances, denied him the right to use the male pronoun at all.  "But at least I... I'm... back, right?"  He pointed half-heartedly towards his head with one slender hand.  "I mean... one out of two ain't bad, I guess..."  He tried to laugh, but it sounded hollow, and the laugh didn't reach his eyes.

            Ukyo felt a sad smile curling at the edges of her mouth as she wiped the tears from her face.  How like him, trying to cheer her up, when he looked like he was on the verge of tears himself. But he hated to see girls cry...

            "Ucchan."  Ranma's voice was quiet, penetrating, demanding her attention.  He dropped his gaze to his hands in his lap.  "I...  I'm no good at this but..."

            Ukyo stopped breathing.

            "... but... I remember... how you stayed with me.  How you..."   He winced, and heaved a deep, shaky breath, as if the effort of thinking back on the past eight days was physically painful.  His cheeks flushed with remembered humiliation, but he plunged ahead.  "Anyway... I just...  Thanks," he finished awkwardly.  He looked up at her, and smiled half-heartedly.

            Ukyo sighed.  

            "Ranchan..." she said, reaching out to take his small, bandaged hand.  He looked down at where her hand clasped his, as if unsure how to react.  She smiled thinly, her green eyes bright and wet, and gave his hand a gentle squeeze.  "You..."

            You want to come with me, don't you?  You want to come with me, and we'll search for a way to break the Snow Woman's cold spell so that you can be a man again, and we'll be together and then you'll see how I've loved you for so long, how I would love you forever, and we'll live happily for the rest of...

            She looked at Ranma, and in his face she could see... gratitude.  Unconditional friendship.  The same feelings she'd seen in his face, for her, since they were children together...

            And that was all.

            "You want..."  She swallowed.  "...to leave now to break the blood spell, don't you?"

            Ranma blinked at her in surprise, then nodded.  "Yeah," he said hoarsely.

            She could almost see him thinking about Akane.  It was the one thing she recognized in his countenance from the past week.

            "Well then," she said.  And to her surprise, her voice did not crack.  "Everyone's packed and ready to go.  We're ready to leave when you are."

            And the haunted look on Ranma's face faded slightly, to be replaced by eagerness, anxiousness...

            "I'm ready now," he said.

            Ukyo's smiled.  But the smile could not reach her eyes.

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            "Nabiki.  Nabiki, wake up."

            Nabiki groaned and tried to bury her head deeper into her pillow.  "G'way, Ukyo," she muttered crankily.  To be shaken out of the first real rest she'd had in over a week did not put her in the best of moods.

            Ukyo shook her again.  "Ranma's awake," she said quietly.

            Nabiki lifted her head out of her pillow and looked at Ukyo, all thoughts of sleep immediately banished from her mind.  She sat up, realizing as she did that she had fallen asleep where she collapsed on her bed, still completely dressed, lying above her bed covers.  "Where is he?  Is he okay?"

            "He's... fine."  Ukyo's green eyes flickered slightly, and she reached up to absently brush her thick chestnut hair over her shoulder.  "He's getting dressed.  He wants to leave for China right away."

            Nabiki nodded, running her fingers through her own mussed hair.  "I knew he would.  We'd better go downstairs, wake the others, and tell them to get ready."  Then she peered closely at Ukyo, at her pale face and red, swollen eyes...  "Ukyo... are you okay?"  She frowned.  "Don't tell me you didn't get some sleep when you had the chance."

            "I'll sleep on the plane."  Ukyo smiled weakly as Nabiki continued to frown reprimandingly, and sat down next to her on the bed, her shoulders sagging.  "But how could I think of sleeping," she whispered, "when he was so... so..."

            And tears welled up in her eyes again.  She brushed at them in frustration and sighed.

            Nabiki's half-lidded scowl melted away.  "It's okay," she said quietly.  "I understand."

            Ukyo smiled gratefully.  It was so strange.  Before the whole blood spell crisis, she never would have thought she could be friends with someone who seemed as cold and mercenary as Nabiki Tendo.  But the past week, as the two of them worked together trying to find a way to help Ranma, she had seen a completely different side to the older girl.

            Well, not really a different side.  Nabiki was as businesslike and no-nonsense as usual.  But now, Ukyo knew that beneath Nabiki's coldly rational intellect beat a truly warm heart.  The Nabiki she had come to know this past week was a person she was glad... and surprised... to call her friend.  And the most surprising thing was that she knew the feeling was reciprocated.  Nabiki seemed just as amazed to find a companion and ally in the okonomiyaki chef.

            And in their talks, conversations that had stretched into the long hours of the night as they kept their careful vigil over Ranma, they both found comfort from their mutual grief in the first real female friendship they had ever experienced.  For while Ukyo had forsaken her femininity throughout her childhood and had thus never had any real female friends, Nabiki's self-imposed isolation, her general disdain for the "giggling fools" that made up the popular cliques, and her intentional fostering of her own ruthless reputation, prevented her from forming any meaningful bonds with her peers... male or female.

            In spite of all that, as well as their personal differences, they were now fast friends.

            "Nabiki," Ukyo looked up at her, her expression etched with anguish.  "He... remembers.  He remembers everything."

            Nabiki's eyes widened.  "Are you serious?" she breathed.  Ranma had never remembered anything about his experiences in the Nekoken after coming out of it.  She chewed her lip in silent consternation as she thought of the consequences of Ukyo's revelation; of the devastating effects it could have on Ranma's ego.  "I was afraid of something like this.  He's never been in the Nekoken so long before."

            Ukyo looked down as she twisted her hands in her lap.  "You should see him, Nabiki."  Her voice was low and hoarse.  "You can see it in his face; all the memories...  And on top of that, he's stuck as a girl, and he knows it."

            Nabiki closed her eyes briefly.  This was not good.  "Do you think he's up to this?" she asked.  "Leaving for China right away?"

            Ukyo laughed; a short, sad sound, full of irony.  "I don't think we could stop him if we tried.  He wants... to rescue Akane.  Right now, that's even more important to him than changing back into a guy.  Probably more important to him than breathing."

            Nabiki glanced at Ukyo, her expression carefully neutral.  "Ukyo... you haven't given up on Ranma, have you," she said quietly.  A statement, not a question.

            Ukyo didn't raise her head, but she blinked and brushed at her wet eyes with her hand.  "Dammit, I knew you were going to say that."  Her voice was low, but steady.  "What can I say, Nabiki?  I know he loves... your sister... and I want him to be happy.  Heck, I want you and your family to be happy..."  She sniffed, and her voice broke.  "But... I would be lying if I said I didn't think about what might happen...  I mean, I can't help but think, what if the blood spell can't be broken?  What if it's impossible to get Akane back?  And then I think, Ranma will need someone to comfort him..."

            Ukyo put her face in her hands, her long hair spilling forward around her.  "And then... I feel so ashamed for thinking it... for feeling that way... because I know that's what Shampoo planned when she cast the blood spell in the first place..."

            Nabiki sat quietly for a moment.  "You're being too hard on yourself, Ukyo," she said at last.  "I know you.  You would never have cast the blood spell.  And what you're thinking is only human nature.  I myself have wondered... if it's too late to save Akane."

            Ukyo raised her head and looked up at her in shock.  

            "Don't look so surprised.  It's been almost three weeks since the blood spell, after all, and anything could have happened to her in the Kami Plane."  In spite of the calm bluntness of her words, Nabiki's hazel eyes flickered slightly.  "And I keep thinking... what if she's lost forever?  How will I... feel?"

            Nabiki sighed and looked around her room.  "I mean, I know she's real, because of the hard evidence I've found, and that I keep finding..."  She thought of the negatives of Akane she'd discovered on the same rolls of film that she'd used to take pictures of Ranma's girl form... and evidence in her ledger that she'd sold all of the photos to Kuno...

            She glanced back at Ukyo.  "I know she's real.  But I don't remember her," she said quietly.  "I mean, if she is lost forever, it won't be like when Mother died.  There are no feelings, no memories, no nostalgia...  Nothing for me to... to mourn for.  None of us... Father, Kasumi... have any reason to feel grief over the loss of Akane, because we only have the intellectual knowledge that she exists somewhere far away.  I think of my mother.  It's been years since her death, and there are so many things about her I've forgotten... but at least I remember that I loved her, and that she loved me.  I can still feel it..."

            Nabiki trailed off for a moment and closed her eyes.  "But... I don't have anything like that for Akane," she finished.

            Ukyo looked at Nabiki, her eyes wide.  She hadn't even considered that.  And yet it made sense.  After all, this past week the Tendo family had seemed much more concerned over Ranma's plight than over the plight of the daughter/sister they knew existed but couldn't remember.

            Nabiki opened her eyes and raised her head, yet her calm expression quivered slightly.  "Did you know, I almost didn't tell anyone of my discovery that Akane was real?"  She chuckled humorlessly.  "I almost didn't.  I almost swept her existence under the carpet, because I knew it would be easier to live in the reality that had imposed itself on all of us, rather than try to bend all our lives to Ranma's reality.  Even if his reality was the right one."

            "What made you change your mind?" asked Ukyo softly.

            Nabiki snorted in quiet self-derision.  "Because, Ukyo, in spite of my carefully cultivated image as the woman of ice, I'm a complete softy.  The truth is, I couldn't stand to see Ranma suffer because of Shampoo's lies any more."  

            Ukyo saw wetness form in Nabiki's hazel eyes in spite of her calm demeanor.  "Besides," she continued, "whether I remember her or not...  Akane's my sister.  She's family.  And I want to remember her.  I want to know her.  I look at the pictures of her with our family, and I still can't remember her.  I can't feel anything for her except frustration that she's nothing but a big blank in my mind, and it makes me feel sick, and I can't bear the thought of not even being able to feel proper grief over her disappearance."

            Nabiki's hands clenched at her sides.  "I don't like anyone or anything messing with my mind.  Or my family.  And this blood spell has done both.  So, even though I know it might be... too late... I hope Ranma can break the blood spell and get Akane back.  But... if he can't... if worse comes to worse and something goes wrong..."  

            She trailed off, then turned to look into Ukyo's wide eyes.  "If Ranma can't break the blood spell, you should be there for him," she said firmly.  "Because Ranma does remember Akane.  And if he can't get her back...  Well, just as Shampoo planned, he'll need someone to comfort him.  And you're more qualified than anyone else I know to do that.  At least in my eyes."

            Ukyo blinked, stunned.  Then a small, tremulous smile lit her face.  "Thanks, Nabiki.  I... I really needed to hear that."

            "Don't thank me.  I'm just giving you the cold hard facts of the matter."

            Ukyo's smile turned wry.  "Precisely why I'm thanking you."  She sighed heavily, almost in relief, as if a great black burden had been lifted from her, and stood from the bed.  "I think Ranchan should be dressed by now," she said.

            Nabiki nodded, and stood as well.  "We should probably go get him and let him know what's been going on, before he goes downstairs and finds--"

            "OH, MY PIGTAILED GODDESS!!  THOU HAST AWAKENED FROM THY SLUMBER AND COMETH TO GREET ME LIKE THE BREAKING RAYS OF DAWN DISPELLING THE DARKEST NIGHT!!"

            "GYAAAAA!!  KUNO, GET OFFA ME, YOU PERVERT!!"

            Ukyo and Nabiki exchanged glances as the shouts rang through the house. 

            Nabiki shrugged.  "Too late," she sighed.  Ukyo turned and ran out the door and down the stairs as Nabiki followed quickly after.

            They reached the dining room just in time to see Kuno collapse to the floor unconscious.  Ranma stood, trembling in fury, his favorite black pants and red Chinese shirt hanging loosely on his female body, his small fist still extended from his thrown punch. 

            And Nabiki couldn't help but feel elated to see him standing on two legs, human intelligence burning brightly in his narrowed blue eyes, even if those eyes were framed by a female face.  It had been too long...

            He turned towards her sharply as she followed Ukyo into the room.  "What the hell is Kuno doing in here?!" he yelled, seething.

            Nabiki smiled.  "Well, he felt it was beneath him to camp outside with the others, so..."

            "You know what I mean, Nabiki," he growled.

            She suppressed a smirk.  Yes, Ranma was back.  "He's paying our way to China," she answered matter-of-factly.  "He's flying everyone there in a private jet.  So before you go breaking any more of his teeth, you might want to remember that without him, we'd all be taking the slow boat, so to speak."

            Ranma blinked, and looked down at the fallen samurai.  "He's... paying?  But weren't you...  I thought you said..."

            Nabiki's smile flickered so slightly that Ranma thought he might have imagined it.  "Oh, that," she said smoothly.  "Well, you know, I figured if Kuno was up for it, why not?  Besides, he's more than happy to foot the bill whenever you're--oof."  She was cut off as Ukyo elbowed her a little too roughly in the ribs.

            "What she means to say, Ranchan," said Ukyo, ignoring Nabiki's angry scowl, "is that she can't pay for the trip because she's broke."

            "Broke?"  Ranma blinked in astonishment.  "Nabiki?"  For some reason, he was having trouble associating the two words together.

            Nabiki clenched her teeth, her face flushing slightly, and  looked away.  She hated to acknowledge that she had depleted all her resources, without a single personal asset remaining.  Knowing that she was only barely in the black made her feel naked and exposed.  But everything had happened so fast, and she didn't have the time to make back the money she'd spent, between having the Nekohanten bugged, making the tape dubs, hiring people to find Ranma, searching all over trying to track down ways to break all the magic spells that had been flying thick...  Hell, she was drained dry.  It would take months of working in her usual circles before her finances were back to normal.

            Ukyo pretended not to notice her friend's discomfort.  After all, she was proud of Nabiki's sacrifice, and if Nabiki wouldn't confess to her generous acts, she would.  "She spent all the rest of her money this past week trying to find a way to help you break out of the Nekoken," she said, looking meaningfully at Ranma.

            Ranma's eyes widened as he looked over at Nabiki.  She looked up and met his gaze, her cool expression almost defiant, as if daring him to find the spark of compassion she had tried for so long to keep hidden, lest it ruin her ruthless reputation.

            But in that moment, as she looked into his eyes, behind the growing realization on his face, she saw... 

            ... saw a flash of the haunted memories that were playing through his mind, glittering in his eyes.  The shadow that crossed his face was raw and terrible, and it made her want to shudder.  Oh no, she thought, all thoughts of money and reputations vanishing from her mind.  Ukyo was right, he remembers everything.  How can he stand it?

            Ukyo must have seen it too, because she reached out.  "Oh... I'm sorry Ranchan, I didn't mean..."

            Ranma blinked, and the shadow faded from his countenance.  He sighed.  "It's okay, Ucchan," he said quietly.  And he walked over to Nabiki, looking up through his red bangs into the taller girl's face.  "I'll... find a way to pay you back," he said sincerely.

            Nabiki stared at him.  She couldn't help but think of the time when Ranma had accidentally destroyed a pair of elite concert tickets, complete with backstage passes, on which she had splurged in a rare moment of extravagance.  He had humbly apologized, but she had been furious at the loss.  The next day, when she and Ranma were left alone in the house while the others ran errands, she made him suffer.  She pulled every dirty trick and manipulation in the book, and then some.  When she was finally through with him, poor Ranma was a frazzled wreck. 

            Now, for the first time in her life, as she thought back on that incident of revenge, she felt... ashamed.

            Ranma's not the only one who's been changed by this blood spell, she realized with a surprise that didn't reach her expression.  Though I'm not quite sure if this is a good thing or not...

            She decided not to think about it at the moment.  Instead, she looked at Ranma and feigned indifference to his offer.  "Don't worry about it," she said, not quite able to hide her discomfort.  "Just promise me you'll rescue my sister, okay?" 

            Ranma nodded, his blue eyes grave and grateful.  "I promise," he said.

            Nabiki looked past him, eager to change the subject.  She spotted just the thing.  "Oh, and just so you know.  When he wakes up," she said, gesturing to Kuno's unconscious form, "he's flying us to China so that we can rescue his beloved mystery girl -- who just happens to be my long lost sister -- from a dragon.  Not quite the truth, but close enough."  She snorted softly.  "I can't believe how gaga he is over a girl he's only seen in photographs.  Still, it's lucky for us that he seems to be as obsessed with her as he is with you."

            Ranma frowned, but before he could respond, the screen door slid open, and Ryoga stepped through.  Shampoo and Mousse followed close behind.  They were holding hands... to Ranma's astonishment.

            Ryoga's eyes widened as he saw his friend, still in cursed form, but standing upright for the first time in a week.  "Uh... hi, Ranma," said Ryoga awkwardly.  "Welcome back."  He immediately wanted to kick himself as soon as the words came out of his mouth.  Welcome back? he thought.  Oh that's just great.  I might as well have just said 'Welcome back from being a cat.'  What kind of stupid thing is that to say after what he's been through?

            But Ranma only smiled slightly.  "Thanks, Ryoga."  He paused, as the shadow of memory flickered in his eyes briefly.  "For everything."

            Ryoga missed Ranma's tone completely, still squirming over his imagined faux pas.  "Hey," he replied, trying to cover his discomfort, acting nonchalant and failing.  "It was no problem.  I mean, sure, all that reading was hard on the eyes--"

            Mousse pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose with his index finger.  "You can say that again," he murmured.

            "-- and we may not have found a cure, but Shampoo did find a ton of wards in an old Chinese book that will help protect us when we go fight that dragon, so all that work wasn't a complete waste."

            "Huh?"  Ranma blinked in confusion.  "What are you talking about?"

            Nabiki cleared her throat.  "Shampoo, Mousse, Ryoga and Doctor Tofu spent the week over at Kintaro-sensei's library, reading all of his ancient Chinese and Japanese documents, trying to find a cure for the Nekoken and the cold spell," she supplied helpfully.

            Ranma's eyes widened as he looked at the weary trio, suddenly understanding why he couldn't remember seeing them all week.  Ryoga and Mousse, two guys that usually acted like they were his worst enemies... trying to help him?  And Shampoo....

            Shampoo was looking at him, her violet eyes wide and flickering, her face ragged and exhausted...

            "Wards not for dragon," she said softly, hesitantly as she looked into his girl's face.  "Wards for demons."

            Ranma met her gaze, and felt his expression harden as a rush of anger rose within him at the sight of her, the one who had caused him so much pain... 

            ...and Shampoo flinched, seeing it in his face.  She lowered her head in shame.

            Mousse, who had been watching Ranma carefully, glanced down at Shampoo; saw her crumple under the venom of Ranma's gaze.  And Ranma half expected Mousse to jerk his head up and attack him, shouting at him for making his darling Shampoo feel bad, or something along those lines...

            Mousse looked up, but he didn't attack.  Instead, he looked at Ranma through his thick glasses... almost pleadingly.  He didn't move, and he didn't say a word, but his expression spoke for him as he looked down at Shampoo again sadly.

            Ranma blinked, taken aback as he looked back and forth between Mousse and Shampoo.  The tall Chinese boy was standing over her like a protector, and she was clasping his hand tightly, as if holding on to a lifeline.

            Ranma took a deep breath and calmed himself.  His anger, though it might be justified, would not accomplish anything, he realized.  Shampoo was trying to help, after all.  And she looked so tormented... 

            He winced as a memory surfaced; as he remembered Shampoo's expression from days previous, when she saw him for the first time, trapped with a girl body and a feline soul...

            He remembered it all.  Seeing the look on her face, the mixture of horror and anguish and guilt as she looked down at him, knowing that she was responsible for his plight...  It was awful to remember that look on her face...

            And even worse to remember the feeling of his own dimmed, transformed mind, which could not even comprehend the meaning of her expression...

            But he understood now.  And, strangely, he found that he felt better, knowing that Shampoo was sincere in her desire to fix what she had done to him... to Akane...

            "What were you saying about the wards, Shampoo?" he asked.  And there was no trace of anger, no hint of accusation in his mezzo-soprano voice.

            Shampoo raised her head and looked at him as she heard... not forgiveness, but... a chance.  A chance to redeem herself.  She straightened slightly, and a spark of hope flickered in her clouded violet eyes.  "Wards no good against Ancient One," she replied.  "Just for demons that guard mountain.  We no reach Ancient One unless we get past demons."

            Ranma nodded approval.  "Then I'm glad you found those wards," he said sincerely.  "That will make this trip a lot easier."

            Shampoo's countenance brightened slightly, but her eyes were wet.  "I lead you to Ancient One.  I do everything I can to... to break blood spell."

            Ranma almost smiled.  He looked around at the assembled group; at his friends.  They looked at him, as if merely waiting for the word.

            "Are you guys ready to go?" he asked.

            "We just need to pack our tents," said Ryoga, indicating himself and Mousse.  "Then we can leave any time."

            Ranma reached down with a slender arm, grabbed Kuno by the back of his samurai uniform, hauled the unconscious young man to his feet, then slung him awkwardly over his petite shoulder.

            He brushed his red hair from his eyes with his free hand.  "Then let's go to China," he said.

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            Outside in the Tendo yard, where two tents were pitched by the koi pond, a small, blurring shadow moved silently in the gray morning fog.  There was the slightest rustle as it disappeared through the open flap of the larger of the two tents... and the slightest rustle as it emerged a few moments later, cackling softly as it bounded away...

            The patio door slid open a moment later, and Ryoga and Mousse stepped out.  Mousse paused a moment, and cocked his head.

            "What's wrong?" asked Ryoga.

            Mousse frowned.  "Did you... hear something just now?"

            Ryoga listened a moment, then shook his head.  "Nothing unusual.  Why?"

            The tall, bespectacled Chinese boy looked troubled for a moment, but then he shrugged it off.  "I guess it was nothing," he said, then walked over to the larger tent to pack it up for the trip.

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            Out of the blissful oblivion of unconsciousness... came throbbing pain... the sound of voices, murmuring soft... and the feel of cool fingers touching her forehead lightly...

            Akane groaned softly.  Her shoulder hurt, and her thigh was shooting sharp messages of pain along her nerve endings...

            I'm alive, she realized with genuine surprise.  She thought for sure that when the blackness claimed her, after sustaining such serious injury from the Shadowcat demon, that she was as good as dead.  Maybe she was.  But surely, if she were dead, she wouldn't be feeling pain... would she?

            "She's still running a slight fever..."

            "Well, that's only to be expected, mistress..."

            The voices sounded... familiar.  Sluggishly, reluctantly, Akane opened her eyes to see where she was, to see whose hand rested on her forehead...

            "Ah...  Akane, you are awake at last."  The Snow Woman smiled down at her, her frost blue eyes filling with icy tears.