Thursday, February 27, 2003
I'm busy and depressed and tired and overwhelmed. It's been a very rough week. I told a friend that I was having a bad day, and she commented on how un-like me it was. It's true. I mean, it's not like I go through life flinging rose petals. I take a realist's approach to most situations and am pretty good at dealing with my problems objectively and logically, so real true bad days are rare for me. Uncharacteristic. There have been lots of changes at work, and paying for the apartment we moved to in August is a lot harder than paying for the one we moved out of, and I'm having trouble adjusting to both. The stress accumulates, and as a result, right now I'm tired and I'm miserable, and the weekends don't provide any relief especially since they've been just as busy lately, and I've been taking a lot of work home on top of this. I'm hoping that things will ease up soon. If not, it'll be time to take a little vacation. Get some distance and perspective, finish up a story or two, and catch up on some sleep. Get back to being the self that I like being.
Rachael owes me a page update. She promised to redo my main page in exchange for cds, and she's slacking off. I'll have to get on her case about it. I've got a couple more disks to take her, and I'll bring it up then, I guess. Hopefully it'll be ready in time for the new stories. Steak *and* sizzle. Concept.
1:33 PM
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
P-chan dropped by to visit me at work today. ^-^ I haven't seen him since November, and I've really really missed him. That's the good news. The bad news is that he was sure I'd just LOVE 'Kung Pow' and brought it over. :p
Actually, I did laugh quite a bit. I grew up watching a lot of old Kung Fu movies, so it was pretty funny, if painful in places. I especially liked all the death scenes. Very typical of those movies, so the send up made me laugh. My kid brother loved this movie too, and he has his own Kung Fu studio now. (Actually, those two facts are pretty much unrelated.) I guess it can't be ALL bad.
Yesterday, Utukki beat its record for most hits ever. From midnight to midnight it go 1737, which were mostly unique hits since keenspace was operating properly, and the new page was up before midnight for a change. I'm starting to get really excited about it. It's hard not to get a swelled head when you know that a thousand total strangers are eager to see your work. Krista deserves most of the credit since she does all the art and the initial idea was hers, but it's still a rush. It's fun and challenging to write for such a visual medium when I really don't have a lot of visual skill or judgement, but I've been really happy with the results, (again, because of Krista mostly) and our following keeps getting bigger and bigger. Also, it's kind of embarassing the way all my friends gush about Utukki almost totally unprompted.
It's good to be loved.
9:55 PM
Thursday, February 20, 2003
Yup. I'm definitely giving up on cffml. No one replies to stories there unless they're X. The might as well give up and call it the xffml unless that name's already taken. I used to use the old old old ffml as a place to get pre-reading and opinions/editing for my stories, and thought cffml would be similar, but more targeted to the Sakura audience. It was for a while, but when I started posting wasteland there, no one cared. Same for 'Her Wings.' I sent it out over a week ago. I got one very nice letter of praise. Other than that, not a ripple. No useful criticism, no nothing. I *know* it's not because my stories aren't good. I did the false modesty thing for years. Now I'm going to be a snob about it. My stories are good. No one at cffml cares enough to tell me how I can make them better. From now on, I'll send my stories to two or five pre-readers, and then straight to my webpage skipping all intermediate steps, not passing go, and not collecting two-hundred dollars. (This is fanfiction. I'd get sued.)
And then people post to the list saying 'why is the list so dead lately? no one's sending in stories. waaaah.'
Kim and Chrysalis are coming over tomorrow night for dinner and a Kodocha marathon. Yes, it's an old series, but I love love love it. Kim is just like the main character which is why she must be tied to a chair and forced to watch it already! I've been trying to talk her into it for years. Now Jim and Daniel get her to watch two episodes and suddenly she thinks it might be something she'll like. Foolish mortal. I tried to tell her, but nooooo...
^-^
3:56 PM
Wednesday, February 12, 2003
There'll be new stories soon. Three of them, to be exact. One Sakura, two Hikaru no Go. I've been writing a lot lately, and pretty soon I'll be posting too. Concept.
Stay tuned.
5:31 PM
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